Who am I ?

I am a nobody. No-body. Because who I am, is alot deeper than my body. My body enjoys fame, acclaim, appreciation, accolades. My body likes to be in great shape. My body takes care of my self esteem, my ego. My body likes to be accepted by others. It is very important to take care of my ego because my ego is a part of me. Only when I have a happy ego can I go past it, not get stuck on the surface, and truly see who I am.

I am a no-body. I like feeling pain. It makes me feel alive. When I am in pain, I feel my heart expand, I feel growth. Today for the first time when I cried I loved the feeling of being of pain. I rejoiced about being human. I realize this is why I'm here. To feel pain and discomfort. When I'm in pain, my soul is trying to push past the boundaries I have placed on myself. Today for the first time I relished my tears. Touched my tears, felt my tears, enjoyed how I was breathing when the tears were streaming down my face. Today I felt so alive - just sitting here on my couch with no one around, no recognition, no praise, no one to tell me I looked pretty when I cried, or I was gorgeous inside out - just me and my tears and I got a glimpse of who I am. I am a nobody.