Life is like a plastic bowl

I feel like my life is like a plastic bowl, every time I try and expand and grow, i have to change the shape of the plastic bowl. In order to do this, I have to heat it up beyond its melting point, to help the material become malleable so that I can mold it into whatever shape I want. And every time the heat goes up, the discomfort I feel, screaming through my body and my mind, I realize it's what is needed in order for me to become malleable so that I can take my next shape - I withstand the pain and I get to that point where I'm now malleable. After I change the shape, to what I want it to look like, I cool down and am now again a rigid plastic bowl of a different shape, and this process continues. The only way the pain becomes easier to bear, is when I'm constantly in this state of being mold-able. I'm in a constant fluid state almost, but that takes a consistent heat source to make that happen, essentially a constant feeling of discomfort is always needed to be in this semi liquid state.

And if that state stays for a long time, it's impossible to be a bowl, the natural state would be to collapse into flatness. A state where there is no hindrance to the flow of energy into and out of me. I am not containing anything, for whatever is mine is yours and vice versa. And in this state I believe true connection is attained. There are no limits, no boundaries, we then become one with God.

Have I seen glimpses of this ? yes !

have I started being in this state more and more - YES !

Today, I recognize and am honoring my process, on what it takes for me, to be in this state more often than not. To be constantly connected to the source - is by far one of the most amazing feelings I have ever experienced. And I intend on constantly working on staying in the flattened out state for as long as I can withstand the heat. Thanks to the Wim Hof Method, I believe it will be for quite a while.