Love
Today I want to talk about love.
I felt unconditional love from an 8 year old and loved her unconditionally. This is the first time I've experienced love like this. And I want to share what I felt.
At first I thought I loved her like I would love my own daughter and then I quickly realized she loved me as my mother would. She caressed my face, told me she loved me over and over, hugged me again and again.
Whenever we were together and danced, she would dance with me like her entire being and mine were connected energetically and she moved her body in exactly the same way I did. I wanted to impress her so much with the playlist I made, I wanted her to love me and adore me for everything I did, for leading the breath session, and I saw her wanting to impress me too, waiting patiently for me to return to her every single time. With no inhibition, with the look of yearning for my company, in her eyes. It hurt me to go away from her , but I had to lead a class and every time I turned to look at her, there she was breathing in and out to show me that she cared about what I was teaching.
When I hold her, I feel an incredible sense of protectiveness, I want nothing to come over her, no harm, no illness, I feel fear, I feel terror, and yet when she looks up at me, I see the same look in her eyes, she wants me to be safe too, she wants me to never leave, she wants me to always be there, to tell her I love her.... Over and over. I never get enough of saying it and she never gets enough listening to it. And in turn she tells me she loves me over and over and I don't get enough of listening to her.
I sing to her while she lays in my arms and I rock her back and forth, yet when she lies in my arms, I feel held by her. She gives me strength, she shows me how to love and she tells me it's ok, she invites me to open up and be vulnerable and love her in a way I have never loved another being.
She wrote me a love letter, straight from her heart, she gave me a gift that meant the world to her, but she wanted me to have it because she wanted to give me something she truly loved.
Love is so beautiful, when pure. I've never felt so much love for a complete stranger, a beautiful 8 year old girl, this was the second time I had met her and yet it is like my heart and hers never parted. I ask myself why don't I love like this all the time? What am I afraid of?
I know I have the strength to love and be able to bear the pain, I know I can love with an open heart, and experience the pain that comes with being that vulnerable.
My Sofia has inspired me to love, love with all of me, all of my being. I want her to be proud of me. I want her to grow up in a world where we are fearless in the way we love for we are stronger than we think we are.... As Wim always says .... The sky isn't the limit, the mind is the limit. And every day, I recognize how much we are capable of loving and living with no inhibition. Let's not take away such a gift from the universe. I want our children to experience loving and being loved this way and grow up into fearless adults who love with all of their being.
Here s to loving each other as my beautiful Sofia loves me. My Sofia is my baby guru.